faces

In Germany there's still a state of emergency and I have so much time to do things that I was always to lazy for. I do sport every day, I puzzle A LOT and watch lightroom tutorials. In the future I want to be more productive with this blog here. I want to write more about my feelings and emotions as well as my experiences. In September my boyfriend and I had our first real vacations together. We visited Madeira, the Portuguese island and I took sooo many photos I need to share! Moreover, I sometimes have the strong pressure to write a book because I have a lot of stories in my mind.
I feel very happy to have time for myself right now and that I can spend this time at home with my family.
BUT I really wish we can return to normality soon because I need to send job applications and I can't engage myself for things I love when I always have concerns about my future in my mind. Do you have the same feelings?

isolation

day 6428923 in quarantine

I am not really in "quarantine" but before about three weeks I decided to leave my flat share and move to my hometown for a while
It is so important to stay home in this crisis and I am very happy to have the "privilege" to do that
I don't have to go to work
I have a mom that cares about me
a garden where I can go out every time
and my grandpa is still alive and fights against his cancer all the time

But this isolation brings also feelings out in me that I can't give up

It feels like curtains are wrapped around my head

voices, laughter and colors bounce back on the surface

only the sunbeams get through it sometimes

and give me hope

sporty

 

 

I don't really know what to say about this post so here are some random facts I experienced throughout winter:

- what was that? 15° degrees on Christmas?? really?
- winter is still better than summer (only because of Christmas)
- vegan banana bread is the only thing I want to eat my whole life
- "sex education" is a really good series on NETFLIX (don't mind the title)
- spend more time with your grandparents