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Poppy Field

Home. What means home to you?
There's a quote that says: "Home is where your heart is". It sounds precious but for my it's true.
Every time I am home and walking through nature I am thinking how beautiful my village is. I feel an outburst of emotions sometimes, I can't stop smiling. Home is something you can't describe - It just feels right to be there. It is a save haven. A lot of this feeling also belongs to the people around you.
I did an internship for nearly 4 months and experienced how happy I can be to have such place.
I stayed in a beautiful city in a beautiful house - but it had nothing to do with the feeling of "home". There was no warmth, no comfort, no feeling to being "at home".
After this time I was broken inside. My self-confidence was gone, my smile disappeared. It took me months to rebuild myself, and I am still healing. Family and friends are the most important things in life, I really appreciate this now.

There are a lot of people that doesn't have a home. Not only the ones who live on the streets but also the ones that don't feel comfortable in their houses.
The more I am thankful to have more than one "home". I never want to miss that again!




"I still see your shadows in my room....


... can't take back the love that I gave you
it's to the point where I love and I hate you
 I cannot change you so I must replace you ..."




Sometimes you just take a picture and have no idea what it will look like in the end.
Or you didn't expect a really nice picture. Or you are sitting at the editing and you are really frustrated when the picture looks worse on the computer than you thought.
That's why I am always "under pressure" while taking pictures. I often take a hundred of them and it can really impact my day if I haven't at least one perfect picture.
It is not a healthy relation to the photographing. I want to learn that it is okay to have bad (photo) days. I don't want my self confidence is dependent on a good picture, no one should do that. So people listen: If you feeling bad after or while taking picture - don't look at the results. I get used to ignoring the preview button, just like if you are having an analog camera. Sometimes I let some days go by before uploading them to my computer. I hope this method will give some of you the fun at photographing back again! And sometimes you really can made a bad picture to a super nice one with editing or another crop.



It's a girl!

"...you are loved little one"

I had the honor to photograph my brother and his girlfriend and their little baby.
Days before shooting I was looking for inspirations on Pinterest and made some notices. I have to admit that I was a little nervous because it needs some preparations to set the belly perfectly.
Unfortunately we caught a cloudy day which led to a bad lightning in the photos which made me dissatisfied. Despite this my "clients" were very happy about the results and that's what counts in the end.

With this little girl, I will be officially called an "auntie". I will take this job very serious and prepared a lot of cute stuff that I can do with her when she's with me. I am so excited how she will look like. I already love her so much. Welcome in our family!










Free Preset: Morning With A Coffee

Hello loved ones! I've got some inspiration and made some presets with Lightroom. Today I want to share the first one here. It is a very soft preset, perfect for portrait shots. Of course, you have to adjust your own settings like exposure and contrast but the light blue and pinkish colour settings will help you to have a friendly spring vibed photo. Click here for the download link! I hope you like it. xoxo

faces

In Germany there's still a state of emergency and I have so much time to do things that I was always to lazy for. I do sport every day, I puzzle A LOT and watch lightroom tutorials. In the future I want to be more productive with this blog here. I want to write more about my feelings and emotions as well as my experiences. In September my boyfriend and I had our first real vacations together. We visited Madeira, the Portuguese island and I took sooo many photos I need to share! Moreover, I sometimes have the strong pressure to write a book because I have a lot of stories in my mind.
I feel very happy to have time for myself right now and that I can spend this time at home with my family.
BUT I really wish we can return to normality soon because I need to send job applications and I can't engage myself for things I love when I always have concerns about my future in my mind. Do you have the same feelings?





isolation

day 6428923 in quarantine

I am not really in "quarantine" but before about three weeks I decided to leave my flat share and move to my hometown for a while
It is so important to stay home in this crisis and I am very happy to have the "privilege" to do that
I don't have to go to work
I have a mom that cares about me
a garden where I can go out every time
and my grandpa is still alive and fights against his cancer all the time




But this isolation brings also feelings out in me that I can't give up
It feels like curtains are wrapped around my head
voices, laughter and colors bounce back on the surface
only the sunbeams get through it sometimes
and give me hope