"I still see your shadows in my room....

... can't take back the love that I gave you
it's to the point where I love and I hate you
 I cannot change you so I must replace you ..."

Sometimes you just take a picture and have no idea what it will look like in the end.

Or you didn't expect a really nice picture. Or you are sitting at the editing and you are really frustrated when the picture looks worse on the computer than you thought.

That's why I am always "under pressure" while taking pictures. I often take a hundred of them and it can really impact my day if I haven't at least one perfect picture.

It is not a healthy relation to the photographing. I want to learn that it is okay to have bad (photo) days. I don't want my self confidence is dependent on a good picture, no one should do that. So people listen: If you feeling bad after or while taking picture - don't look at the results. I get used to ignoring the preview button, just like if you are having an analog camera. Sometimes I let some days go by before uploading them to my computer. I hope this method will give some of you the fun at photographing back again! And sometimes you really can made a bad picture to a super nice one with editing or another crop.

It's a girl!

"...you are loved little one"

I had the honor to photograph my brother and his girlfriend and their little baby.

Days before shooting I was looking for inspirations on Pinterest and made some notices. I have to admit that I was a little nervous because it needs some preparations to set the belly perfectly.

Unfortunately we caught a cloudy day which led to a bad lightning in the photos which made me dissatisfied. Despite this my "clients" were very happy about the results and that's what counts in the end.

With this little girl, I will be officially called an "auntie". I will take this job very serious and prepared a lot of cute stuff that I can do with her when she's with me. I am so excited how she will look like. I already love her so much. Welcome in our family!

faces

In Germany there's still a state of emergency and I have so much time to do things that I was always to lazy for. I do sport every day, I puzzle A LOT and watch lightroom tutorials. In the future I want to be more productive with this blog here. I want to write more about my feelings and emotions as well as my experiences. In September my boyfriend and I had our first real vacations together. We visited Madeira, the Portuguese island and I took sooo many photos I need to share! Moreover, I sometimes have the strong pressure to write a book because I have a lot of stories in my mind.
I feel very happy to have time for myself right now and that I can spend this time at home with my family.
BUT I really wish we can return to normality soon because I need to send job applications and I can't engage myself for things I love when I always have concerns about my future in my mind. Do you have the same feelings?

isolation

day 6428923 in quarantine

I am not really in "quarantine" but before about three weeks I decided to leave my flat share and move to my hometown for a while
It is so important to stay home in this crisis and I am very happy to have the "privilege" to do that
I don't have to go to work
I have a mom that cares about me
a garden where I can go out every time
and my grandpa is still alive and fights against his cancer all the time

But this isolation brings also feelings out in me that I can't give up

It feels like curtains are wrapped around my head

voices, laughter and colors bounce back on the surface

only the sunbeams get through it sometimes

and give me hope

sporty

 

 

I don't really know what to say about this post so here are some random facts I experienced throughout winter:

- what was that? 15° degrees on Christmas?? really?
- winter is still better than summer (only because of Christmas)
- vegan banana bread is the only thing I want to eat my whole life
- "sex education" is a really good series on NETFLIX (don't mind the title)
- spend more time with your grandparents

Off into space!

Maybe I belong among the stars

Here are some very artsy pictures we did with a projector. We got the idea from bryant on Instagram. I am very happy about the result, it was a lot of work. My favorite picture is the game over one, I look very strong and confident what I don't really am.

Shooting

"True friends are never apart - maybe in distance but never in heart"

This is my best friend. I know her for a very long time - for 13 years. She was my neighbor, my comforter, my soulmate. We share a passion - photography ( and make up). We always take thousands of pictures, most of them end up in the trash. But it's always a lot of fun with her.

Thank you! I love you ♥

Black and White

When I recently wrote my blog post about March I never thought that it would be so extremely frosty and cold again. In Leipzig we've got -10 degrees! I like winter but enough is enough. I want to wear my spring clothes!! :(

Here are two pictures of my boyfriend. I know his head is cut off but he can't keep still, he hates photos! But he can't refuse any request of me, hehe.

Hello March!

Cold February is gone... and the colder March has already started.
I like this month. The first half is very frosty, sometimes there is snow. But the sun even shows up.
I like winter so it is not a problem for me.
The other half is the most beautiful one. First plants grow, it goes warmer and warmer, the day becomes longer.

Despite of the deep temperatures I took my camera and my boyfriend and we went to our beautiful park in Leipzig named "Palmengarten". We've waited for the blue hour to get a nice sky.
The lake is our "Elster".

selfie time 2

I love headbands! 

I am so glad that the trend has come to Germany.

On Amazon I found 10 pieces for 13€.
Here you can find them.
They fit perfectly and look so cute! My favorite is the one I wear on the photographs.
 I hope summer will come soon so that I can wear them everytime!

(The eye look is created with the ABH Modern Renaissance, shades: Red Ochre, Love Letter, Cyprus Umber, Vermeer)

A Day in Grandma's Garden

Photoshoot #1: My Dog

Hello June!